Leaving Bridges Behind Me

This month has been a lot of bridge walks for me. I don’t want to think that I burned any bridges with the decisions I have made. Instead, I have crossed the bridge, and as I make my way down the wooded path to something new I can just barely see the bridge behind me. I may come back to these bridges, but for now, I will walk forward.

I left my job this month. I have been working for a local credit union for exactly one year, but it was time for me to move on. I feel insane for leaving a place of financial stability before finding my next move, but it had taken so much from me. Many knew how unhappy I was. It is in panic and yet deep relief that I move on.

This month we also decided to dissolve our tea non-profit. This was much harder on Rachael than me. She feels like a failure, but it just couldn’t be. The lack of support alone had set us up for failure. We have decided to take what resources we had left and give them to a thriving local organization with a similar mission and then Rachael and I will focus on Recovery Tea.

I have recently also made the decision not to publish my graphic project, Received, yet. I realized from letting friends review it that this project is not done. I want to make more of it, polish it more, and then publish it someday.

For now, I am going to focus on another thriller I was working on in 2019. It’s about four college students living in a house together. One of them is being subtly harassed and it puts two of the housemates at odds, but what is really tormenting her is not what she thinks. It’s spooky and weird and anxious, but I worry it’s not going to be as good as Violet Disaster.

I am also working on my first fantasy piece. It is about a kingdom of animal shifters at war. To build an alliance the princess is traveling to another kingdom to marry their prince, but she falls in love with another man who has a great secret.

Quitting my job, trying to go back to school, and making so many vast changes in my life, has left me exhausted.

So many bridges and the water is solid ice.